September 2013 Newsletter – The Hard Lessons About HEALING

It’s difficult to inspire others when you are in the depths of physical suffering. My newsletters and blogs have gone unwritten most of this year because I was reluctant to hint that my health had taken a “hit,” and because I always only allowed myself 24 hours to overcome any personal ailment. The experience of these past eight months has given me a new perspective on such expectations of myself– and that of my body.  It’s been too difficult to put to paper what I’ve gone through, and what I am still going through, but the lessons are plenty and I am ready to share some of those now.

In 1991 I experienced radiation poisoning due to a second syringe of radioactive dye being injected in my arm for a gall bladder test.
I write about this with more explanation on my web site: Homeopathics saved my life then, and while the process of finding a physician who would give credence to my symptoms has been repeated, it was again the BodyScan that discovered the source of the ailment. I also give due credit, however, to one physician who was willing to research along with me to find a medication proven to give some relief to my condition.  It is due to the radiation excess that my immune system was unable to resist the damages brought on this year. The injections 22 years ago created a suppressed immune system response, such as that of clients with Lupus, Chronic Fatigue, and many other diseases and conditions for which the immune system has turned on itself.

As difficult as it is to be concise here, the following are some lessons that I will briefly share:

  1. After doing all one must do to literally “survive,” it’s time to move out of the victim mentality to make further headway– in spite of what is still going on in your body.
  2. You may never have the answers to “Why me?” or “Why did this have to happen?” Don’t get hung up on finding out WHY.
  3. Recognize the blessings. I went 3 months without being on the medication I really needed to take because I couldn’t convince a physician of what I was dealing with. My condition became worse for the wait. I remained in isolation. Having a friend to lean on and cry with over the phone during the darkest times was a blessing.  Finally moving forward with the help of a physician who cared was the turning point.
  4. Surviving can come down to a choice you make. Empowerment makes a difference. CHOOSE to take back your life.
  5. Celebrate the baby steps.
  6. Watch your WORDS. Saying you are having a bad day, or a bad week, exacerbates the negative energy. Find something good in each day. “I was able to sleep 4 hours…what a blessing!”
  7. Be thankful for something every day. Gratitude builds and multiplies. The positive energy surrounding gratitude and faith makes a great difference in your body’s frequencies, better enabling your body to respond to healing and nurturing by good food, good thoughts, good friends…and any form of “good medicine” that your body needs.
  8. Attempt changes in your life that encourages your environment to be more stress free.
  9. Do things that you enjoy…being with family, grandchildren, painting, gardening, reading…that’s good medicine, too.
  10. In Chapter 4 of Please Dance at My Funeral; A Celebration of Life, I wrote about Letting Go, about “unpacking the baggage we carry of un-forgiveness, so that at any moment in our life it becomes our last, we have released thoughts and emotions at life’s end.” I thought I was going to wait a few years to deal with that. I find that illness is a time we should look at those loose ends and deal now with what is relevant.  Some combination of suppressed emotions could just be a key to unlock some further healing.
  11. Make friends with your body and listen to it. We have become masters of our bodies, telling our body it must perform as if it had eight hours of sleep when it had five, or convincing our body that it can take that mucous and fever and put it on hold until the weekend because there is a conference that must be attended today and tomorrow.  We have learned not to do what our body has been telling us to do. And then we wonder why….
  12. Being ill to the point of changing your life, is life changing.  Your attitude changes. Your perception changes. What you really value in life changes. Why must we get to illness to live more simply? Why do we get to illness to eat what our body needs, to rest more, to be a little more ok about not being in control…of everything?

Please share this newsletter with someone you know who is going through their own healing issues. I’ve written these twelve paragraphs to share hope and encouragement.